I've spent more time away from my daughter in the past six months than I think I have her entire life.... I keep feeling like I'm missing out!
tonight, after not seeing her for a couple weeks, I read her some books before bed and then she curled up on my lap, with her head on my shoulder, and she fell asleep while I rubbed her back and sang her a song....
she's four years old... and hasn't fallen asleep in my arms in at least a year......
its funny how you don't realize what you're missing, until you are reminded of how great it felt.....
Robert Munsch's 'I'll love you forever' comes to mind..... I can totally understand the feeling of wanting to sneak in to your grown child's bedroom and rock them to sleep, just for the comfort of that moment....
she's growing up ............
While driving and listening to music today, I had Fleetwood Mac's 'Go your own way' on an album ... and I know the song isn't about this (especially w/ a line like "shacking up is all you wanna do"!!) .. but it made me think about being a mom .. and how, if I could, I'd give my daughter the world, but one day, she'll be going her own way, doing her own thing, discovering her own world ........ and..... I want her to, but I want to hold her hand, but I cant, but ........
words and emotions suck :)
anyhow, sleep is my lover now ..... g'nite folks! :)
