he is not who you think he is...

[previously posted on xanga]

and he crept across my consciousness, tiptoeing, echoing through my heart.. his breath touched my cheek, but more than that there was not ... to need, to want, to desire, to crave the simple freedom of gazing into his eyes ... he is far in distance, both geographically and emotionally -- years pass and we hardly cross paths.. I yearn for him in ways I knew not to exist .. does he know I carry this lightless, lifeless torch for him? and better to ask -- does he care?

ess.eeeee.eks

[previously posted on xanga]

its a new year and I'm a new grrl!  I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years just after new years eve .. things had been going down hill for a very long time, I just didn't have the nerve to do what needed to be done! it was the first monogamous relationship of my life.. and we hadn't had an active sexual relationship together for more than a year .. so now that I'm single and looking -- I'm randy almost 24/7 .. its driving me insane!  I feel like I cant have a clear and intelligent thought without wanting sex!  Random strangers become sexual fantasies as I'm stopped in an intersection at a red light ... all I seem to want to do is masturbate and my fingers are tired :( Its been a rough ride .... know anyone local to me who is just looking for a fuck buddy?! :)