Journal entry #10

not that anyone cares other than me, but I've been doing really well on this diet.. I'm 1/3 the way to my final goal.. I should be done in July and be one hot li'l number! yay me! hehe :) (okay, so, we all have our dreams.. let us have them!)

little else is new... we're prolly getting really good seats for the Metallica concert, but I shudnt be telling you this, cuz it'll prolly jynx us! blah! so I'm going to flash you with a big *FNORD*

go forth and procreate as yee see fit .. for thine are the chosen ones...

Journal entry #9

okay, okay .. so .. I was really harsh in my last entry .. I can tend to be a total bitch when I dont get my own way ... blah .. I'm lucky he still loves me thru all my ups and downs ..

I've been having a lot of craziness go on for me in the past while ... I dont know what to say about it .. but its certainly been a long strange trip of ours...

6 weeks

[from casstastrophe.com blog]

 

 

I've been talking with a counselor of mine, and she's suggested something that would certainly add some spice to my mundane life. There is a six week Trauma program at Homewood in Guelph and she thinks I would learn a great deal from it. I know that I've suffered a lot over my past and haven't really taken the time to deal with those events and I could see where I would benefit from a program such as that... however there are drawbacks! While I would be able to come back here on weekends, it does make for a very long time away from home .. from my boy-toy and my cat .. from the things I am used to. I was in at Homewood two years ago when I first came home from California -- it wasn't a horrible experience, as psych wards go .. the food was great, the staff was friendly and Homewood itself sits on beautiful grounds, plenty of walking space and close vicinity to the town. I could also get back in touch with some of the outfits I do volunteer work for, since they base themselves out of Guelph .... so many ups and downs, good and bad reasons .... I'll certainly have to do some thinking! 

Journal entry #8

Well .. my bf is officially a cunt .. grr.. he hates that word so he'd hate if I called him that .. but fck!

Since we got together, we've talked about going to a schnazzy concert together .. and he's talked about how he'd love to goto another Metallica concert .. well .. now they're coming back to town for the summer and I ASSUMED I'd be going with him .. but no ..they're getting a bus and its an all guys nite out ... FUCK THAT ... I mean TOTALLY FUCK THAT .. what a mother fckn dick .. I hope he enjoys his fckn concert without me .. fck :/

Journal entry #7

okay, so its morning.. and I shudnt be awake, but I am.. oh joyous of occasions it must be ... actually, its just another boring Saturday morning with nothing to do but sit in front of the computer alone while everyone else sleep ... yippi skip.. I'm a lucky frog ... blah

lately I haven't been doing much of anything, so why bother to write .. its just one of those lives ....

if anyone cares, and I'm sure they don't, I started this schnazzy diet in Nov of last year and I'm doin' really well on it.. so like, drop me a line and congrat me or sumfin .. cuz like, I could really use the encouragement ......... *sigh*

maybe more some other lifetime.. maybe not .. we'll see.. happy trailz!