repeats itself ad infinitum

[previously posted on xanga] it happend again.. I really, truly, thought last time was enough .. that there WOULD BE NO _this_ time again ..... but .. it happend again.. why is it that I always put myself into situations where other people can take advantage of me?  maybe I should re-name myself to Mat, since everyone walks all over me any way [hardideharhar]  .......... maybe I just shouldn't have a name, then people couldn't address me and I wouldn't meet anyone new and I wouldn't have to worry about me letting them hurt me ....... cuz that is it, isn't it?  People don't just HURT other people.. they hurt people that let themselves be hurt ......... I think? ----- Mirror mirror on the wall I'm not the fairest of them all but if you said I give good head then that would be a good call!