Munch much?

"In excited conversation we have glimpses of the universe, hints of power native to the soul, far-darting lights and shadows of an Andes landscape, such as we can hardly attain in lone meditation. Here are oracles sometimes profusely given, to which the memory goes back in barren hours."

How can meeting one person change so much in one single evening? A conversation that rolls through hours and actions and loses no momentum... such that the eventual parting would otherwise be merely bitter with no sign of sweetness save the knowledge that there will some day soon be another rejoining.

Engaging .. intriguing .... arousing.... no, I think the right word is 'infectious' ... like an infectious disease ..... I feel tainted, corrupted ... changed somehow; stained. Between every motion I've made in the aftermath of our meeting, between every thought, he has somehow slipped into my consciousness and I find myself looking, waiting, wondering why he isn't here in my present reality.

I'm a sucker.

I fall so very hard so very fast.

Do I think there is any other way? ... no, maybe not. I've always known within the first five minutes or less of meeting someone.  I knew within the first three with this one, maybe less.

The biggest problem is, while I am fairly good with the first six of these good 'rules' for life:

1. Be Impeccable With Your Word
2. Don't Take Anything Personally
3. Don't Make Assumptions
4. Always Do Your Best
5. Give credit where its due
6. Find people better than you to better yourself

it is the last that often seems to cause me the most trouble:

7. Don't let someone become a priority in your life,when you are just an option in theirs

How do I stop being so very intense and rushing head-long into something I don't understand? How do I hold myself back from holding my breath until I can be holding him again?

If only he wouldn't LOOK at me like that... ~/*swoon*/~