ever just feel like you're falling.. forever?

[from casstastrophe.com blog]

 

 

 

somehow I dont feel like I fit in anywhere I go.. I have small concepts of numerous groups .. and I poke my nose in where I think it might not get bit off --- and instead of that happening, it just gets very very cold and I slip away into my dark pit of self loathing and self-hatred.... 

I'm really not such a bad person to know, y'know? .. so how come no one really wants to know me? :( 

I feel so very misunderstood. I've managed to be brutally honest with everyone I've ever considered a friend and they've all left me in the dust .. maybe honesty is hard to face, I don't know because people are never honest to my face ... I seem to scare people away with my imagination and ideas, too ... funny.. that was the one thing that kept people coming back for more when I was little... 

 

I'll be 23 years of age in just over a month. What in "Bob"'s great name am I going to do with the rest of this life?