raking my brain

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Well, I looked at the clock and it read 1:43am ... and I thought to myself 1 - 4 - 3 .. thats the pager code for I - LOVE - YOU ... best get online and pop off another muse-like entry before it gets cold! But then, then I forgot what I had to say... so all you get is this cheap rambling about a cute time and a silly excuse for why I'm not in bed yet... yep, thats all you get

w.a.l.s.t.i.b

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..and I'm never sure when it stops.. sometimes it flickers into my consciousness quicker than I can even grasp, and its only later I become aware of vague memories from when it was there...

does that even make any sense? does anything I write ever make sense.. *sigh* who do I write to, why do I write, does anyone listen? am I going insane or am I slowly going sane? I cant seem to differentiate between the two... 

soon, it says, soon .. soon it comes and we wait... patiently? no, I think it's because we haven't a choice ... we must merely wait.... 

so I wait....... 

the evil man rears his ugly head again

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 Well.. it's tax season! In fact, tax season is about to come to a close (at the end of this month) and I havn't even begun to piece together the mess that is my taxes! *le sigh* Will someone help me please?!
I've been playing around with some of these pages, adding some here, taking some away there .. and I added the new main page for METALLICA!!!!

We are going to have a BLAST at that!! ohmighawd Limp Bizkit, Deftones, Lyncoln Park, and the ab-so-fckn-lute show stopper M E T A L L I C A @!@#!@#@!!@$!@$

hehe.. if you find something broken on the page that wasn't broken before, feel free to drop me a line and let me know!

Many happy returns!

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I drove to the airport in Toronto this morning for 7 o'clock! But it was well worth it -- my sister was returning from B.C. where she's been visiting our Aunt for the last 2 weeks! Considering I'd only seen her for one day prior to her most reccent trip, whence she'd been gone for 3mos to Thailand... so I was VERY willing to rise early for this occasion! Unfortunately, she's heading to Montreal next weekend for another 2wks! She's such a globe-trotter and I'm so jealous!

One of my passions in life has always been traveling and I partake whenever the opportunity presents itself.. Lately, however, funding just does not permit travel! *sigh* I've looked at a school in Victoria, British Columbia for some time now.. its a course to become a Registered Massage Therapist and I think it is only 3,000 hrs so it could be done in 2yrs... I just dont know where I'd get the funding for it .. bah! being broke sucks! damn all those ppl born with a silver spoon up their a$$!!! GRRR! (no, no animosity here!!!) 

...and soft it falls upon the page

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nothing thrilling and exciting to report.. just been an average kind of day and an average kind of week.. received some e-mail from an old friend today -- it wasn't very inspiring, but maybe it was a bit of closure.. *sigh* I hate when you get quoted as having said something, but its taken completely out of context! Some things mean entirely different meanings when they're surrounded with different words....

On a happy note, today is my step-brother's 12th birthday! Yay! I've only had this extended family since Nov 11th of 2002, so I dont know them very well and dont know very much about them -- my mom got married quick, she met the guy in March and married him in November, but they're very happy and he's really wonderful for her! The kids live with their mother and are only over twice a week and odd weekends, but they're pretty schnazzy! (I dont live with my mother, either, so I dont see them often at all!)

.. unfortunately, it's all been said and done before!

Little Robin red-breast

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Wish I had a pair of yellow rain boots! I'd love to go splashing in the puddles that are swarming around my neighbourhood. Spring is certainly in the air and the grass is green under the snow! (mmm.. green grass! hehe *devilish grin*) But even so, my spirits seem low.. I think its the snow melting, its the gray skies, its the rain and the drizzle... I think its the new meds, too -- they've upped them again and I think its making me tired! 

 

I decided that Homewood WOULD indeed be a good experience and I've filled out all the neccessary documentation to be admitted... now I just have to play the waiting game and see when they let me in! It's terrible the way it upsets your life to take 6wks away from everything else you're doing -- but its worth it! 

Journal entry #10

not that anyone cares other than me, but I've been doing really well on this diet.. I'm 1/3 the way to my final goal.. I should be done in July and be one hot li'l number! yay me! hehe :) (okay, so, we all have our dreams.. let us have them!)

little else is new... we're prolly getting really good seats for the Metallica concert, but I shudnt be telling you this, cuz it'll prolly jynx us! blah! so I'm going to flash you with a big *FNORD*

go forth and procreate as yee see fit .. for thine are the chosen ones...